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I thought it was probably about time I actually updated various things rather than just write vague sad journals. What a revolutionary idea.

Anyway, the crux of the matter is this: I was recently (literally last Tuesday) finally diagnosed with a condition I have been fighting to have recognised for three years now. It's a dysautonomia (problem with the nervous system) called Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, colloquially referred to as POTS.

It's rare and very underrecognised, which is part of the reason I've had such a hard time getting diagnosed. One doctor actually told me that I couldn't have it because 'it was too rare' and proceeded to diagnose me as having low blood pressure.... Which his tests clearly showed I didn't have..?
Another doctor told me it was normal and made me think I'd gone insane to the point I had a panic attack, so that was great. Goddamnit NHS.

Basically, POTS means that for some reason, my autonomic nervous system doesn't work as it should. Standing up and any physical exertion causes a drop in blood supply to the heart and brain, and as a result triggers the 'fight or flight response' FOR NO REASON. The heart rate increases dramatically, I become super dizzy and can pass out, nausea, chest pains, heat intolerance, shaking, get migraines that last for days.... It sucks.

Add that to the fact I had finally told a GP (the uni one) about the fact I've been struggling with depression on top of my usual anxiety and general autistic oversensitivity for the last three years and am now on medication? Yeah...

I'm doing something called 'interrupting' my studies. It's called a lot of things in different places, but basically it means I am allowed to drop out for as long as I need to get my health to a point where I can study and then they will offer me the same place back. It's probably the best possible outcome, seeing as I originally wanted a year out to have an assistance dog trained to help me at Uni.

So... I'm going to be using this year to sort my POTS out to the point I can stand long enough to get a job, get a job to raise money for the assistance dog for when I go back to Uni (if I do) and just generally put myself in a better place. It's probably gonna be hard without my friends around, but I'm gonna give it a go.

I'll be around quite a lot, probably. :3
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Artist | Student | Varied
United Kingdom
Hey, QuantumNightmare a.k.a. Mero here, I'm an autistic British Uni student who has much better things to be doing than spending all their time on the Internet but somehow cannot bring themself to do work. Goddammit.

I'm a Games Computing student with a passion for all thing technology — art's more of a hobby for me, though I'd love to be a well known fan artist for the YouTubers I watch! Language-wise I speak English, Japanese and French, though I'm not exactly fluent in the latter two.
My interests include Roosterteeth and various YouTubers, computers, video games, cosplay, anime and Lolita fashion~

Now I shall express my opinions on life in vaguely obnoxious stamps; sorry:

Neurodiversity by AtuinSTAMP: PRONOUNS - NEUTRAL by qnerdi
OC - Soul Stamp by AlpharesIf You Must Stamp by SpikytasticCharacters' Beliefs Stamps by Spikytastic
Lolita stamp 2 by HappyStampDA Stamp - Cosplay Addict 01 by tppgraphicsTea by ChibiRiceball
RWBY Stamp by MewGiX3RoosterTeeth Stamp by Skittles91kRed VS Blue Stamp by pillze69
Tunisia by SirvanaRachanaWhy? stamp by aftersunsetsDA Stamp - Complexity by tppgraphics

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Riverthunder Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hi! Sorry, I don't mean to bother you, I just wanted to know if you saw your Creature Exchange design? I know I posted it a little late which was my fault but it's up now~
QuantumNightmare Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2015  Student General Artist
Whoops, sorry about that! I had a bunch of messages this morning and got a little overwhelmed so I just procrastinated rather than answer them ^^;
I'll go look now!
Riverthunder Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
It's no problem at all! I just wanted to make sure you'd seen that I finished your design ^w^
driftingsakura Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Student Digital Artist
thanks for the fav~~ pffft, I feel bad not saying it!!
SwordOfBurningLight Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
hope you like it :D 
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Seiyuko Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for watching ! 
Color-Capsule Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
GriffinPhillis Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the waaaatch! :la:
It means a lot~ ^.=.^
RachbakN Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the watch!
Minouze Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you sooo much for the watch, dear !! :iconbrohugplz:
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